porQpine

2010-10-08T15:54:00.003+08:00

life has changed.
so am i.
no more you.
go ahead and have your freedom of being single.
memories that we have,
to me now, it's so painful to think about it.
to tell myself, it's time to let go.
part of me, lies to myself.
that you'll be back one day, after you have enough of your single life.
i feel so numb....

2010-04-15T23:24:00.000+08:00

MY BLOG IS OFFICIALLY DEAD!
I'LL UPDATE IF I WANT TO.
AND IF IM NOT LAZY. (;

Jayden

2010-03-01T01:15:00.002+08:00

lols, it's been a long time since i updated my blog.
well, i just converted to a full timer at my working place.
this week, all closing shifts. xD
it's been a long time since i have done closing.
well, nothing much to blog about.
been happy. (;
yupps.

Jayden

2010-01-17T23:59:00.004+08:00

baby finished work at 4pm at LT.
she came down to my house, and we went to my grandma's house because
it was deon's cut cake session.
he is turning 2 this year!
after dinner at my ahmah's place,
blah blah blah blah,
censor censor censor.
dont think too much, it is something i cannot type out here.
some family matters.
anyway, after that, baby and i went for supper at spize at river valley.
after supper, we head home.
and now im home.
and im was not in a good mood when i just reach home.
lucky baby called me. (;

NOW I UNDERSTAND WHAT MY MUM MEANS WHEN SHE SAID,
TRUE FRIENDS ARE THE ONES WHO WILL SMACK YOUR FACE REAL HARD,
TO LET YOU KNOW THAT YOU'VE GONE TOO FAR,
AND THEY WILL STILL BE THERE FOR YOU.

Jayden Gucci Goh

2009-12-31T14:10:00.002+08:00

time flies and another year has gone.
as time flies, people grow older.
a new year comes and we'll have to learn new things and go through new things in life.
i have not settled my problems in 2009 yet.
well, i hope it is a better year for me tml.
going to vivo later to meet my cousins.
cheryl is joining us.
not sure what we'll be doing. ><"
just got my pay.. i think it sucks..
it is not the amount i expected..
oh well.

Jayden Gucci Goh

2009-12-28T23:35:00.002+08:00

hello!!
i came back yesterday.. (;
landed safely in singapore at 5:15pm.
wanted to give cheryl a surprise but turns out she's not working.
well well..
reached home, unpacked everything and around 8plus i left my house..
went down to OP to meet alessia..
damn it, i threw up my dinner.. and i threw up 2 times? lols..
came home and rest..
having slight fever since last night until now..
have to attend tml's sheesha as it is very important. xDD
well, hope i get well soon.
oh, and i got back my wallet with only left with my ez-link, IC, golden village member card,
hang ten card and CRC card.
i dont feel happy getting back at all..

Jayden Gucci Goh

2009-12-23T04:20:00.001+08:00

well, im leaving my house in another 2hours?
and i cannot be contacted like for 5days?
Missing In Action! xDDD
i'll miss singapore definitely..
feeling so tired but, no more time for me to sleep..
yeapps..

Jayden Gucci Goh

2009-12-22T15:24:00.002+08:00

xP store is going to have a gift exchange programme..
AHHHH!! i havent get a present for mine. lols.
getting it later..
anyways, i just got a haircut again.. ><"
hmms, going to shower, change and get ready to go out! ;DDD
meeting ty, find the present and i'll be heading off to store..
im gonna miss everyone. (;
hongkong next morning.
i cant buy things for everyone..
yupps..
i'll be back on sunday.
just a quick vacation for me.

Jayden Gucci Goh

2009-12-21T16:46:00.002+08:00

ok, just went for lunch with my dad..
and went to see a chinese doctor..
my left wrist is a little twisted..
hahas.. damn pain when he started doing the massages..
it is like oh my goodyness pain!
now, my left hand is like.. still pain..
have to go and see him 1 more time.. zzz..
going to hk with a twisted wrist.
going for dinner with my grandparents later.
(;

Jayden Gucci Goh

2009-12-20T07:04:00.001+08:00

guess what..
it is 7am and i just got home.. =="
did closing today..
wasnt as busy as my partner and M.O.D expected..
im not sure because i dont really work closing shifts.
well, i took quite long to close the bar..
but hope it was done nicely and clean!
morning M.O.D is none other than mama janet..
so must be super duper clean. xDD
after closing, went to SB-LT to slack with wilmy and shah.
because by the time we finished, it was 4am man!
hahas, we take our own sweet time to close.
oh, maybe not we..
only wilmy and i. hahas.
relax luh, chill luh.. no transport home eh!
well, went to Liat Towers and lepak until 6am..
yeapps..
now im home.. i can feel my body is tired yet my eyes dont wanna close..
TSK! irritating!!
hmms, yeapps..
alright, gonna stop here... not sure what am i going to do next..

Jayden Gucci Goh.

2009-12-17T17:36:00.002+08:00

im not playing around or fooling around.
well, i'll set this clear once and for all.
enjoy yourself at the states.
and i'll enjoy myself here for another 4days.
and we'll see how it goes after you come back.
cherylchan is the one.
she's able to control me in a way that i wont get out of hand.
she has that special thing that makes me soft-hearted towards her.
i know i may seem like im toying with your feelings, but im not.
believe or not, it is up to you.
and looking at what you post,
it really made me pissed off but..
anyway...
take care of yourself. (;

2009-12-17T17:28:00.002+08:00

off day on tuesday, yesterday and today.
wow. great life yeah? but the pay wont be nice..
julia's flying off at 6am in the morning.
byebye!
well, went for liying's birthday party yesterday at kallang leisure park.
met qi and ty..
nabei! i took 1hour to make a new atm card can.
fcuk..
my wallet's lost..
hmms, oh well...
what can i do to get it back right?
the movie tickets especially..
the person who took it, i hope you'll have a 'good' life uh..
sigh...
anyway~ after liying's birthday, rushed down to the ktv at my house area to celebrate ahfat's bday!
hope you had fun! and thanks to tiffany that he drank a waterfall, and i manage to drink too.
lols.
sing sing and sing..
the people were, ahdar, foonyee, lekkang, yisi, qi, chun hoe, debra, me and obviously the bday boy.
yupps..
ahfat is finally turning 19!!
and im still stuck at 17.. =="
BORING!
cheryl is happily clubbing..
cherie is happily doing nothing..
(;

Jayden Gucci Goh

2009-12-06T14:46:00.000+08:00

i need time to think.
i need to be alone.
i cant be in a relationship now.
i've to be alone to think, who do i really love.
who do i really want.
am i over cheryl?
am i ready for julia?
or im not over cheryl?
yes, after thinking about it last night and this morning.
im sure im not over her.
im sure i regretted having that break up.
walking away from her.
wanting her back now will be like moving a mountain.
but thinking about her makes me wanna cry because she isnt here anymore.
tears will fill my eyes but i'll force myself to keep it in.
the feeling of me now is like me and first ex gf.
a pain that i couldnt take it.
will there be second chance?
or what is it?
you're being so cold.
you're not like that.
i know you.
am i the one who changed you?
it took me so long to realise all these..
for every single relationship, im always too late..
this is the 2nd time.
but this is the 1st time im not getting a second chance and i've never been through this.
i dont know how to handle this feeling.
i was so cold towards you when we first broke up,
i didnt even think about it anymore.
i didnt think about whether to save it or not.
i just walked away.
you were heartbroken.
you asked if i was,
i told you i wasnt.
but now i know,
deep down inside me, i am.
all my tears has been accumulated inside me.
thinking i could be strong,
i wasnt.
wanting so much to have a hug from you now,
to hear your whinings.
to see you smile,
hear your laughter,
going through rough times together.
even if i have to get down on my knees to get you back,
i would do it.
knowing how empty i feel without you,
how my tears would just fill my eyes when i think of you,
makes me feel that im wrong that i didnt need you.
and yes, you keep telling me that you've moved on..
but are you willing to turn back,
to bring me along with you?..
cheryl chan, thumbs up for you.

porQpine

2009-12-04T12:01:00.002+08:00

omg! im sick..
great~...
i cant work 6days straight...
well, i think mama janet's going to be soooo pissed off man...
sigh... but i really cant work..
my body is too weak...
maybe it'll be better tml..
yesterday was the first time i experience Starbucks openhouse.
it was damn fun!
it is like everybody working as one..
it is like a team..
like one big family.
and it was haikal's last day because he's going in to NS.
we'll miss you.

start of something new.
Jden Gucci Goh.

2009-12-02T00:35:00.000+08:00

ok, first of all, i hope cheryl is reading this.
i want you to really take care of yourself.
you deserve much better.
if you want to continue to be angry with me,
go ahead if it makes your life better.
i've really tried my best to do all i can to help you,
to promise to be there for you.
but it seems to me that you dont need it anymore.
you dont even want to talk to me,
i think you dont even want to look at my face or hear my voice.
even though we are not together anymore,
if a friend were to be treated like this,
it is really heart-breaking.
but i know, im the one who caused you to be in this state,
therefore i dont have the right to say anything.
just want to let you know that i'll be there when you need me.

well well well!
it's the start of december!
open house is coming!!
omg omg omg.!
my position will be at frap!
anyway, i will be out of singapore on the 23rd to 27th december.
i'll be making my way to hong kong with my family..
accompany julia to shop for her prom clothes after work today..
im sooo exhausted now..
zzzz.. feels like im going to knock out soon..
working at 9am tml..
shift this week is so darn cool man..
monday, 9am. today, 7am. wednesday, 9am. thursday, 9am. friday, 7am. saturday, 8am.
im working more than a full timer man!
congrats to me~~
wooohoo!!
6 days in a row man!
alright...
im going to sleep soon.

porQpine

2009-11-17T23:52:00.002+08:00

are you ready?!?!
oh well. hahas.
was home for the whole morning and afternoon..
it is normal for me to be home the whole morning if it is my off day because....
i'll be sleeping until afternoon. (;
so i spent my whole afternoon sitting infront of my lappy.
playing word challenge on facebook.
and sad to say, there was some repairing of pipes at my block..
i couldnt use water until 5pm..
omg.. i didnt bother about it because i was too hungry..
i had to get some water to cook noodles.. xDD
didnt had dinner with my family because i thought of going out for dinner.
turns out that she was still sleeping until 7pm..
so i went to shower at 7pm and i just realised....
my heater was spoiled..
nabei! i took longer to shower because the water was so freaking cold.. ARGH!
i headed down to enter to have dinner myself..
after that dar, fy and lekkang came down to meet me..
they went to have dinner so i just tag along..
after dinner, fy and lekkang went back..
dar and i went to arcade to hit the drums. LOLs.
amazingly, i still can play.. ;DDD
after drums, i bought tu tu kueh from pasar malam..
went to sit at the playground to slack...
after that dyin yin came, and i left at 11pm.
i went home, and they went to kim keat. (;

as time goes by,
it will heal.
and we'll be friends again.
you can hate me,
but i'll really be here for you.
as a listener,
as a friend.

a new life.
a new start.
all the best cheryl chan.

you were great!
thanks for everything.

Jden Gucci Goh

2009-11-12T12:49:00.003+08:00

sometimes i'll wake up thinking if you're doing fine.
if you're really taking care of yourself.
doing the right things.
but after thinking about that,
i'll ask myself, why should i bother so much.
this is what i want you to become,
to be able to live your own life.
why am i so concerned?
all the best.

porQpine

2009-11-10T12:14:00.002+08:00

hey all!
lols.
im back.. my laptop is back too.
anyway, she's doing fine.
im doing fine.
she's getting use not to have me around.
it seems that she has changed.
but, it's not my problem right?
yupps.
went down to pub & ktv on thursday night.
celebrated fy's birthday. (;
next up is alicia's birthday.
im smoking a new cigarette.
marlboro ice blast.
all my bitches! you should try.
taste like perppermint.
but you must know how to smoke that cigarette uh. xP
but it seems like the whole tpy is smoking that luh.
i couldnt find the cigarette on sunday can.
everywhere all sold out. =="
yupps. (;

porQpine

2009-10-23T03:03:00.002+08:00

it ends.
it stops.
we move on.
you were great.
happy birthday.

porQpine

2009-09-27T21:36:00.002+08:00

quarrel quarrel quarrel.
what is happening?
what is going on?
have you changed?
or have i changed?

porQpine

2009-09-01T16:05:00.001+08:00

hey readers.
im using my elder brother's comp now.
well, quick update..
i'll be working in starbucks.
had my interview and stuff.
i'll have my in-store training tml.
and it is at orchard parade.
lols, i'll be working there.
but not sure whether i can pass my bar test.
if im too slow, my manager might get a little in patient.. ><"
hmms, yesterday i went to have supper with my colleagues after class.
they are nice, friendly and easy to get along people.
baby and i are having less time with each other.
we are getting so busy with our lives.
but as long as i love her,
she loves me.
nothing's going to change.
but i really hope we'll have more time for each other.
coming up will be priscilla's birthday.
090909 right? (;

you light up my life.
porQpine

2009-08-21T19:55:00.002+08:00

hey everybody.
currently at baby's place...
my laptop is currently spoiled..
so i cannot update..
and i know i dont update frequently also. xDD
just had dinner with baby at her house with her mum.
came to her house to watch the korean show..
her mum recorded.. (;
yupps..
lazy to blog more..
just want to tell baby happy 7th month on 20th august. (;
and i love you.
you may feel like i dont care,
or i dont bother.
i do..

7th months and more.

porQpine

2009-08-17T00:21:00.002+08:00

nabei.
everytime before i blog, my younger brother will piss me off..
i lend him my laptop, and when i get it back like just now.
and he was sleeping..
i found out that my laptop has ants..
like WTF. nvm.
argh.
now i dont know what to blog about already.
anyway, today went down to orchard at about 9plus,
to wait for baby to finish work.
after that went to orchard parade to see her colleagues.
im going for interview on wednesday..
for starbucks at orchard parade..
so nervous when janet talks to me..
if i work part-time there,
i'll have a many new things to learn. ;DDD
which will make me feel stress..
because i learn things super slow..
hmms, see how it goes..
see if i manage to get in.
ok, that's it..
i've got nothing to blog le..

7th month.
baby and i.
porQpine

2009-08-10T14:13:00.002+08:00

last week, was a really fcuked up week for me..
just yesterday, i found out my $100 was missing.
and it went missing in my house.
zzz, nobody want to admit..
my dad said he believes it isnt my younger brother.
but please luh, the whole house only that fcuking guy steals money.
steal my dad's and brother's money.
i lost my $100 and yet my dad still can ask me whether i spent it.
like what the fcuk? $100 eh?
you think i dont know how to control my spendings is it?
it is only the 10th today eh.
fcuking hell angry yesterday.
so, there's nothing i can do..
i have to work to get back my $100.
wow, so smart right that person.
went to meet vincent, fy, lekkang and yisi at lorong 1 around evening.
then around 10plus 11, went over to h2.
went there by myself.
sat until 3?
im not sure of the timing also.
reached home, called baby.
and slept.
and now awake.
still feeling fcuked up.
because i dont have enough money to eat, smoke, or do anything.
but i dont care.
even if i starve to death,

i rather smoke.

what is a family?
more trustable than friends?
well, it seems to me that it is a
complete BULLSHIT.
leave me alone.

porQpine

2009-07-31T00:34:00.002+08:00

luiyee and me

jinz and me

the pictures are baby's friends.
today went to school..
after school, quickly rushed down to orchard to wait for baby to finish work.
she finished, then we went to holland v for her lunch/ my dinner.
had sushi teh at 5 or 5plus..
went to have tea with baby at 6pm.
at dont know what is that shop name.
around 7, we left for bbp.
went there to meet baby's friends.
they chat chat here and there..
baby tell them about me going to pub almost everyday.. ><"
nag nag me say why i havent fully quit smoking yet. xP
well, i left at 11pm.. because i scared later i dont have anymore bus home..
having school tml.. 9am is my class.. i shall reach at 1030. ;DDDD it ends at 12pm.
tml meeting baby's friends again.. i think it is another group. im outta cash!! )': that's all.
and i love baby!

6th months and more to go!

porQpine

2009-07-29T01:22:00.000+08:00

baby and me. ;DDD

vivian and me. (;

well, vivian is someone i know from H2.
the camera couldnt capture her beauty. xDDD
she looks a little like felicia chin to me.
anyway, went down to pub with qi and baby today..
i was having gastric since last night til now..
went to see a doctor..
had medications to take.
that's why i couldnt drink beer..
wow, i can actually control myself from drinking eh. xPp
feeling tired now..
asked baby if i could take another picture with vivian because the picture dont look nice..
but she seem upset when i ask her..
well..
baby is having her off day tml..
and im not sure whether im going school tml...

exhausted.

porQpine

2009-07-26T14:08:00.001+08:00

me and feifei.

vincent and feifei

me and feifei

tina and me

vincent and tina

me and tina

well, went to pub yesterday with vincent..
took pictures with 2 of the girls that we know there..
forgot to take picture with the 'aunty' jas.. xDD
got giddy again..
because mixed a bit of martel with my beer.
again, vincent to the rescue! xDD
played 5, 10 with feifei then doris.
played direction with tina.
on wednesday, thursday and friday,
i was with my baby..
because it is her off day! ;DDD
thursday baby and i went down to the pub.. (;
friday, baby had dinner with my family.
after dinner at lavender, went back to my house.
aunty joyce brought deon and daemyn up to my house because baby wants to see deon.
VIP uh she..
after that, my parents, me and baby went to tpy to buy durian.
whee heee!! so fun!! ;DDDD
came back to my house and had durian together.
that's all! (;

enjoying life.
broke.

porQpine

2009-07-20T02:09:00.001+08:00

well, just to post this to say,
happy 6th months baby.
love you much much.
dont think so much alright?
im always here for you.
dont think that i'll run to another person.
dont think that i dont love you anymore.
dont think like i dont bother about you.
dont think like i dont want to contact you.
dont think like i dont miss you at all.
i do..
i know i have been spending my time with my friends for these few days..
but once you're off, i'll make sure i will spend time with you.
i want to spend time with you.
and for pub at my house area, they are just friends to me.
i wont like them.
although i may be playful, but i know my limits now.
even if they were to ask for my number to be just normal friends,
i would tell you, yes, i will give.
and yes, they will remain normal friends.
nothing more because i know clearly that i have you,
and i only want to have you.
you always tell me that one day if i dont love you anymore, please let you know.
i know, i remember that sentence.
and i told you, that wont happen.
i've learn to control myself..
control the limits between friends and you.
i will lend my shoulder to my friends if they need it.
but i'll lend you my shoulder no matter what it is, because im yours.
i wont give a kiss to my friends for nothing.
but i will my kiss whenever, wherever, because im yours.
i wont hold my friends hand for nothing,
but i will hold yours, because, i want you to know, im here to hold you, no matter what.
baby, i really hope you know, and hope you'll feel,
even if you think that i may look like a playboy,
i behave like one or what, i seriously know the limits.
no kissing, no holding of hands,
no going so close, because all of this, it only belongs to you.
please realise, that i know my limits.
if i really like another person, i would have told you.
i wont like my own good friends, because after so long,
i really have no feelings for them, they're just my friends.
but you, i have feelings for you, you're my baby.
i love you. (':
i really do.

stressed.
porQpine

2009-07-19T14:35:00.000+08:00

let me cut this short.
friday had c13 gathering.
karyen, xinni, asthina, lynnette, stacy, angela, alicia, chelsia, tayying and me.
did nothing much.
after that went to pub with angela, alicia and chelsia.
baby came after that.
yesterday, went to sentosa with many many people.
let me try to type some out.
jayden, tayying, yisi, fy, lekkang, dar, vincent, chelsia, chun hoe, irwin, liying, philip and still alot more..
lols, after sentosa, dar, vincent and me went back to tpy enter to look for my baby who's waiting there for me.
after that, baby went to HDB Hub to wait for her friends to come pick her up.
dar, vincent and i went to pub.
wheeees~~
after that, fy, lekkang, chelsia and chun hoe came.
and lastly, our one and only qiling. lols!
from around 10plus 11, we stayed until 3plus, 4am?
wow! ;DDDDD
chelsia and dar went home.
chun hoe, vincent and me went to qi's house.
yupps.
around 730am, vincent and i went back first.
straight to ahmah house for me.
had breakfast with my mum,
cut my hair then go up my ahmah house sleep. (;
that's all.
my back pain liao.

20709.
6th.

porQpine

2009-07-16T23:59:00.003+08:00

went to orchard to meet baby for dinner..
had our dinner at DOME.
i had teriyaki chicken pasta.
baby had pasta also..
seafood tomato i think.
after dinner, we went to coronation plaza,
baby went over to see the new starbucks there.
after that took a bus, about a few more bus stops down,
went to, something tea place..
sat there and had drinks.
i had peach smoothie.
baby had earl grey tea i think.
baby's my photographer of the day! xP
and i took 2 pictures of my baby. (;
i love you!

3 more days.
porQpine

2009-07-12T01:23:00.002+08:00

wow, tiring day for me..
woke up at 11plus 12..
had lunch, then started to clear songs in my comp..
i had 5GB of songs in my comp..
clear ALOT..
and im still left with about 2-3gb?
zzz.. english songs that i kept were 200++..
chinese i think about 100, or less..
others, about there also..
zzz..
darn..
i cleared alot already eh..
anyway, im getting hungry!!
went to watch movie with baby today..
had dinner at crystal jade..
and movie at shawhouse, orchard.
watched ice age 3D.
not bad. it was funny.
enjoyed the show but we had a price to pay..
LOLs, $13 per ticket seh!!
tsk tsk tsk..
money just flies away like that. xP
ok, i think im going to find things to eat..
byebye!

tired.
porQpine

2009-07-04T02:33:00.000+08:00

hello.
ok, firstly, i went to baby's house today.
at around 2plus 3pm i reached her house..
sent her to work,
then i went for work with fy.
at tpy, telemarketing.
from 6pm - 9pm..
after that, met up with dar for dinner.
around 10plus or 11 plus, went to spans jom at my house area to drink,
with fy, vincent and dar..
drank 2 jugs.
i guess i was the one who drank the fastest and drank the most..
that's why im having a headache now..
my head is like not functioning properly..
like headache, and giddy.
but i can confirm, im not drunk..
when i drink, im always like that..
hmms, im waiting for baby to finish work..
she finish at about 3am, then i can call her..
yupps. that's my day..
and yesterday,
baby brought me to pan pacific hotel's lounge to have a drink.
it was baby's treat. (;
i love you baby! (;
next time, it'll be my turn to bring you there!
promise!
you must remind me alright?
that's all.

tired.
headache.
porQpine

2009-07-01T01:17:00.000+08:00

well, my school's starting soon.

im playing game now.

baby's asleep..

nothing much to talk about during my long holiday..

just want to let you all know,

i just wish school wont start..

i just wish the holiday will be extended for another month.

or maybe the best will be extended until h1n1 disease i over.

xDD im thinking too much uh?

as usual, i've been picking baby up after her work..

smoking very little now?

about the most i can smoke a day is about 6?

the least is, not even 1 stick.

thanks to baby, i've not been smoking so much..

and she still wants me to quit..

she doesnt allow me to be a social smoker.

she doesnt allow me to smoke even if it is 1 stick a day.

she just want me to stop.

sigh, it is easy for me to say, but it is seriously difficult.

baby and me = 5months already.

coming to 6months.

aint that cool..

hmms, not sure if im meeting baby tomorrow..

maybe i'll go over to rc, provided pussy and friends dont have mass cca day.

it is so irritating when they have that..

forced to stay in school..

i think baby will be having dinner with her mum..

then we're going for K with chiew fung's to celebrate her birthday.

so busy uh?

it is at 11pm..

sure have to take cab home.. zzz..

i just got my allowance only eh..

dont like that leh..

sigh..

later i not enough money again..

upcoming birthdays,

angela ong and my grandma..

seriously, i havent bought a present for claris..

i dont know what to get for her.

dont know what to get for angela.

and of course spending time with my grandma on her birthday.

okok, im going to play my game..

i dont want to type type and type.
baby, i've updated. (;

steal from vincent's blog. xD

sunday night. 28th june.
happy birthday, qiling. (;

WHEES~!

porQpine

2009-06-18T01:54:00.002+08:00

hmms, back to update..
if not im going to called a kukubird again.
actually, nothing much to blog about..
just that, baby and i are going to be 5months soon..
and it falls on Father's Day?..
zzz.. sian!!
AND! my house phone is spoilt!!
i cant make phone calls!!
i didnt talk to baby on the phone!!
and baby went to sleep already!!
zzz.. bored..
surfing the damn net..
dont know what i surfing also..
sigh.. im hungry..
WOOHOOO!
ok, my eyes are tired..
but not my body..
okok, that's all..

bored.
porQpine

2009-06-16T00:35:00.000+08:00

well well well,
baby got frustrated with me again..
i seriously dont know what i can do to assure her that i love her only.
hmms..
met baby at her work place first..
at about 4pm.
she went to plaza sing with me to collect my stupid $28.25 battery cover for pixon.
had dinner with her mum at crystal jade.
after dinner, we went to get tickets for monsters vs aliens..
i went down to find angela and peiling..
saw them when i look down from crystal jade.
around 7, went back to look for baby and her mum to go up for the movie..
it starts at 715pm.
the show was quite ok..
funny because of that blue-ish slimy; BOB.
after movie, i went to look for angela, peiling, alicia, alicia's bf, peiling's sis and peiling's sis bf.
well, nothing much..
was a little quiet when i was with them because,
i promised baby that i will talk to her every night..
thinking whether i should make move first..
sigh.. yupps.
now im back home..
baby should be sleeping now..

trust me.

porQpine

2009-06-13T22:26:00.000+08:00

havent been blogging for awhile.
hmms, baby and i are doing fine. (;
getting along very sweet.
we're still in honeymoon mode..
lols! our honeymoon mode is superly long!
had been sending baby to work these few days..
today, sent her to work..
sat there from 6pm until 830pm then she come out for break..
accompany her for her break time then i left..
she's working from 6 - 3am.. sigh..
what a shift..
well, im waiting for her to reach home.
im going to play my game now..
and someone said im noob in that game today..
ask me to train more.. zzz..
it is my computer which is lagging..
not my skills that is lagging.. zzz..
and not my aiming fail..
sometimes gan chiong right..
okok! i love you baby! (;

yours always;

forever.

porQpine

2009-06-05T01:26:00.000+08:00

well, after making you cry,
i felt like, im such a useless partner for you.
i didnt think of your feelings when i was happily playing,
thinking that it was ok to play around with my friends.
i know you were waiting for me to call you,
waiting for me to reach home.
i know you want to tell me how's your first day like,
but i screwed up everything.
making your heartache.
making you hurt.
at this point, i dont know what i can do to make me feel that im not useless..
making your own girlfriend, is what i call useless..
unworthy for you to love me.
well, my heartache too.
i told you what happened, and i feel bad because i hurt you.
but i didnt tell you, i'll feel guilty.. i'll feel like im hiding things from you.
which i dont do that..
i dont know what i can do, to make up for what i've done.
yes, i think i deserve one tight slap, which i did slap myself.
i just want you to know,
that i wont do it again.
now that i know that you dont like it, i wont do it.
i want you to know that im sorry baby.
deep down inside my heart,
there will only be you.
no one else.

pessimistic.
porQpine

2009-06-04T08:07:00.000+08:00

im sorry baby.
i know i promised you that i'll talk to you on the phone everyday but i didnt.
and i did it on the first day.
im very sorry.
i feel so troubled over you getting upset that i cant fall asleep now.
all i want to do is,
wait for the time to pass quickly so that i can see you.
i feel so bad that i made you feel upset, disappointed and maybe, i made you cry.
when we hang up, i can feel that you are feeling very down.
you want me to go home that instant.
but, i was happily playing with my friends and didnt know that i was hurting you.
i am also disappointed that i did this.
i dont know what i can do to make you believe me,
that when i promise you something, i will do it.
baby, you really mean alot to me.
i didnt call you when i reach home because i didnt want to wake you up.
i reached home at 730am.
when i promised you at 330am, that i'll have a drink and go home.
i feel like, im such a bastard for doing that.
im really sorry baby.

speechless.
porQpine

2009-06-01T13:16:00.001+08:00

having test in school now.
super bored.
ok,
im going to stop here.
later kenna caught.

porQpine

2009-05-26T19:50:00.002+08:00

dar and me. (;

dar and me.

amy and me. (;

dar and me. (;
me and baby. ;DDD

whoops! xP kenna caught!

mummyera and daddyjoe. (;

porQpine

2009-05-25T22:49:00.001+08:00

well well well!
my birthday celebration on 22nd may uh!
it was fun.
good friends were there..
daddyjoe, mummyera..
amymother! ;DDDD
and most importantly, my baby is there with me too. (;
drank like no tml..
sang like we own the place. xDD
hmms, i dont have the pics..
there are with ahdar.
so wait til i get the pics, i shall upload?
well, baby stayed at my house after the celebration..
she stayed on saturday night also. (;
she love eating the food my parents cook uh.. ;DDD
bah kut teh! saturday afternoon.
she sure loves the soup.
heh heh heh!
i wonder when's the next day baby's going to stay at my house again.
or maybe! me staying at her house. ;DDD
wheee heee!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF ON 22ND MAY! ;DDD
CHEERS!

iloveyou, baby.

porQpine

2009-05-20T09:26:00.003+08:00

hey hey people!
first of all...
HAPPY FOUR MONTHS BABY!
yesterday, went to have drinks with qi and dar at a pub.
qi's friend came after that.. eunice.
well, nothing much to blog about..
i got to go school soon.
baby must be sleeping..
baby must be tired..
going to meet baby later to go get some clothes for myself.
baby, i love you! (;

i hate school.

porQpine

2009-05-13T23:55:00.000+08:00

ok, just got back..
went to school today..
had 2 tests to do..
and i just found out that i got debar for June exams..
expected..
lack of attendance.. zzz..
nvm! it's ok!
well, after school, went to baby's house..
brought my laptop along.
played game...
after that went out for dinner.
at bpp, subway again. xDD hahas!
this time, i couldnt finish..
after dinner, went over to baby's aunt's house at yew tee.
reached her aunt's house, a dog came running madly to the gate and barking.
his name is sausage. (;
yupps.
had steamboat there.. of course, i ate very little as i was full.
left her aunt's house at 1010pm..
took a train back home..
when i reached tpy, i saw celine!
talked to her for awhile, then i took a bus home.
damn tired..
i guess my eyes were red when i saw celine..
because i fell asleep in the train, too tired..
baby is playing SuddenAttack without me..
TSK! im going in now!
bye!

you're mine.

no sharing!

porQpine

2009-05-13T01:15:00.000+08:00

someone has been giving me some lecturing about not blogging.
so im here blogging..
i didnt go to school today..
because today's class is group work.. and i dont have any what i called FRIENDS.
so i always dont go to school on tuesday.
im having a test tml..
hope i remember how to do..
baby and i, are getting better and better.
she's getting more and more paranoid! xDDD
im kidding..! hahas!
she's getting more and more lovely, and caring. (;
she loves rabbits..
and she look like one when she wear her formal attire to work last time. xP
baby and i are going to be together for 4months soon.
i cant get to sleep eh..
baby baby baby!!
i blogged already hor!
recently the latest show we watched was x-men origins, wolverine.
it was great for me. (;
ok. i shall blog about yesterday.
let me try to remember.
i didnt go to school yesterday either.
met ty and vincent.
accompany vincent, he went in to school to see a teacher.
me and ty wait outside..
after that, accompany vincent to bedok..
after bedok, we went down to parkway to meet debra.
her talking was marvelous. i can "understand" everything! (;
hahas. after that, qi came down awhile at 445pm, when debra left already.
vincent, ty and i cabbed back to tpy at 455pm.
and i went home first when we reach tpy because,
i found out that baby is going to have dinner all by herself.
so i quickly went home to get cash and went down to bpp to have dinner with her.
we had subway.
after that, had a bus ride..
i took 966 back to tpy..
on the way back, daddyjoe msged me..
joe was at tpy, playing pool with mummyera. xD
so i went down awhile..
reached home at 1210am?
hahas. yupps. that was my day yesterday.
WHEEEES!! it is the month of MAY!!
wooohooo!
can i not celebrate my birthday this year?

i'll hold you tight.

porQpine

2009-05-09T12:34:00.003+08:00

nothing to blog about.

and i can see my blog is dead for about 2 weeks.

and im just simply too lazy to blog.

porQpine

2009-04-20T23:09:00.000+08:00

baby baby baby,
it is not you who's paranoid.
it is me, who's not making you think too much.
it is me, who's making you insecure.
no matter who im with, my heart will always be with you.
it was you, who made me believed that love is really blind.
i love your inner beauty.
the way you treat me.
the way you care for me.
the way you show your love to me.
i wont just love any mary, annie, lucy.
i love you, cherylchan.
i want you to know, i love you only.
without you, life will be dull for me.
i wont go for movies so often.
i wont go to places i have never been before.
baby will always bring me to places like holland V.
i've never been there before.
i want you to know,
you are that important that even if you dont have the money to eat,
and i have,
i rather starve to death and let you have proper meals.
i rather give you all the best, and leave the worse for me.
well, words cant describe all the feelings i feel inside for you.
actions speaks louder than words.
im sure my actions did show something right.
(; i love you.

and baby,

HAPPY 3RD MONTH! (;

porQpine

2009-04-19T00:54:00.002+08:00

hey my gu niang readers. lols.

i know i havent been blogging for quite a while.

im just too lazy and my computer has some kind of problem..

tsk, like now.. im using my brother's computer to post this..

i couldnt go into blogger..

cannot go into other people's friendster profile..

well, shirley bought my a VANS shoe. ;DDDD

it is nice!

went to play pool today..

as long as baby knows where i went, what i do, then i wont have to blog. xDD

hmms, yupps. so obviously i spent my days with baby that's why i didnt blog..

friday, i sneaked into tpy stadium because it was ftpss's sports day.

in the end, still kenna caught. xP

but i was allowed to stay and watch.

the feeling of being with my secondary school friends was great..

that made want to go back to re-take my n levels and go for o levels..

sigh, but, since i've decided to go for ITE, i have to do it. because it was my decision.

i missed my teachers, my friends, my principal.

no one who will catch me when im playing truant or being defiance..

no one will nag at me when i dont attend school.

no one will nag at me when i dont pay attention in class.

no one will nag at me when i do something wrong.

no one will talk to me when im bored.

everything changed when im in ITE.

i have to be self-discipline.

im all by myself.

which i know, this is a big obstacle for me to overcome.

i love all my teachers.

and when i went for the sports day,

it seems that most of the teachers recognised me.

the feeling was great.

i love you all my teachers..

mdm tan YN, mr rick lee, mrs lau, mr chan BB,

ms ang, mdm rozainah, mrs woo, mr yeu, mr muthi,

too many of them.

and lastly, i love my principal mdm aini too. (;

i missed secondary school days..

baby,

i love you.

and i blogged.

porQpine

2009-04-03T10:22:00.003+08:00

was too tired to blog yesterday.
so i'll blog today.
well, i was suppose to bring baby to the zoo in the afternoon.
maybe around 1 plus 2?
but my mum forgot to pass me the card..
so i had to wait at home til she gets back..
i meet my mum at the bus stop at the expressway.
took a bus at around 2 or 2 plus..
baby was so excited that we were going to the zoo.
made me happy to know that she's so excited.
hmms, we reached the zoo around 3pm.
thanks to baby for taking a cab from woodlands.
well, we walked and walked and walked in the zoo.
elephants, lions, zebras, monkeys, bats, snakes, giraffes, white tigers, lama, polar bears, tortise, wolfs, cheetah, penguins and more i think.
we walked from 3 - around 6pm.
after that, took bus 138 to amk to have pizza hut! ;DDDD
bought a welcome photo that baby and i took at the zoo. (;
18bucks a photo..
what a way to get tourists money right?.. tsk tsk tsk..
only singaporeans know.. xDD
it was an exhausting day..
i sent baby all the way home, and i was having stomach aches. xDD
went all the way home and the shit didnt want to come out anymore.. =="
and i slept super early yesterday.
too tired..
alright! im going to shower and go over to baby's house.

baby,

i hope you had

a great day. (;

porQpine

2009-03-25T23:04:00.002+08:00

well well well,
my day was perfect with baby until my younger brother called when i was going home.
he called and asked a question which i hate the most.
what time am i reaching home.
my dad didnt even ask me this and his asking me.
he wanted to know because he didnt dare to sleep alone.
come on, his already 10 and he doesnt dare to sleep alone.
he always act like as if he owns the whole damn world.
not only him, most of the new generation kids.
parents are spoiling them.
my mum told me that my younger brother is exactly like me.
yeah, right..
do i show respect to people older than me?
i do, but it seems that he doesnt.
dont compare me with others.
i hate that. i dont want to compare myself to others, especially my younger brother.
he is worse than me.
if he is exactly like me, why cant my elder brother get along with him?
ah, drop this fcuked up subject, fcuking hell make me fcuking angry.
baby told me not to punch anything, but i did.
because i cannot take it.
it is all kept inside me.
i feel better now.
waiting for my elder brother to come home.

watch confessions of a shopaholic with baby today.
the show is great to me.
suitable for girls who likes to go shopping.
yes, and i dont feel like blogging anymore.

fcuked up.

porQpine

2009-03-19T07:26:00.002+08:00

early morning and im blogging..

sians.. got school marh..
mum smack me on my face to wake me up.
baby called my phone to wake me up.
now, im going to school...
yesterday was mummy's birthday..
went to eat kway chap with my mum, dad, younger brother and baby.
after that, came home, and cut cake!
wheee heee!!
hmms, today we'll be celebrating again..
because yesterday my elder brother wasnt free..
tonight is the dinner! yaye-ness!
ok, im going off to school now. byebye.

just 1 more day. (;

porQpine

2009-03-15T00:46:00.001+08:00

CHERYLCHAN. (;

DEON GOH.

photos just to entertain. xD

2009-03-14T23:51:00.002+08:00

my voice is totally, different!
god! i want my voice back!!
argh...
nothing much to blog about again..
just that everybody who went for yiwei's birthday chalet is getting sick..
dar, joe, era and me..
wow.. almost the same symptoms...
i think someone passed it to us.. but dont know who uh.
if not maybe it is the weather on that day..
wasnt good at all the weather..
drizzling while the sun is still up..
well well well..
on the phone with baby now..
no matter what, even if i can just speak but my voice isnt as loud and clear,
i would still want to talk to my baby on the phone..
i want her to stay with me,
i want to hold her to sleep,
let her know that im here for her.
no matter what kind of sickness she has,
im always here to go through it with her,
and get over it with her.
(;

you mean everything.

porQpine

2009-03-12T10:01:00.004+08:00

wow, i fell sick..
fell sick on a tuesday..
went to see a doctor.
yesterday was alone at home..
baby came over to look after me..
let me explain what i symptoms i have.
tuesday, i had cough and when i cough, my throat and chest will be super pain.
didnt have a fever.
yesterday, i had a fever and cough was still there, just that the pain isnt there.
well, today, didnt go to school because was feeling very weak..
my back is super weak..
back to school tml..
sigh, im alone at home again..
my dad went to bring my ahmah see doctor,
my elder brother dont know go where..
oh, and my daddyjoe is sick also. get well soon daddy!
then we can go out together again. ;DDDD
sigh..
got to wait for baby to come over..
baby, if you dont feel well, dont come over alright?..
stay home and rest if you have to..
i love you..
when i get well, it will be me who will be going over to meet you.
we'll go out together.
have dinner together.
watch movies together.
do lots and lots of things together. (;
thank you for coming over to look after me..
thank you.. (';

you're one in a million.

porQpine

2009-03-09T17:02:00.003+08:00

hey readers.
yesterday went for yiwei's chalet..
baby said she couldnt make it, but she surprised me.
she came.. (;
iloveyou.
everyone was laughing at my reaction..
well, today and tomorrow, i cant meet her.
she'll be with her mum.
didnt went to school today.
was too tired..
but will go tml.
yupps.. now im at home. nothing to do..
slept alot..
saw a fly in my room and i freaked out.. xDD
it was at my window.
and i think it flew out already.
if it didnt, and i see it again, i'll whack it..
hmms. waiting for dad's call to go have dinner together.
that's all.

i'll hold and your hand,

and we'll walk our paths,

together.

porQpine

2009-03-04T01:00:00.000+08:00

2ND MARCH
hi human beings!
im really very very super lazy to blog,
because there's nothing much to blog about.
anyway, went to meet baby with qi.
met her at clarke.
hmms, after that, we met her aunts and cousins.
they wanted to go to a pub.
well! im not 18 yet..
so it might be a little difficult..
end up, qi and i went over to bugis, blujazz, to look for joe and miss talkative.
miss talkative ordered blue lagoon for me! ;DDDD
yaye! after that, baby came over to join us! YAYE!! BIG SMILE! ;DDDDDDDDD
then we went for sheesha.
god! is it because i dont know how to smoke it,
that's why there's very little smoke coming out of my mouth? =="
nvm, anyway, after that, yiwei and her gf came down.
baby, joe, ms talkative, qi, yiwei, yiwei's gf and i went to play pool!
went to pool fusion.
played from 12, 12plus until 4am.
LOLs! around 430am, baby and i took a cab home. (;

3RD MARCH
i slept from 6am to 4pm. xDD
hahas! i woke up at 4pm because baby wants to come over for awhile.
around 515pm, baby and i walked to tpy.
baby left first because she's going to vivo to meet her mum.
i waited for dar and we went down to potong pasir to meet joe.
had dinner with them.
after that went down to chinatown to buy something.
after chinatown, we went down to vivo because there was nothing much to walk at chinatown.
dar and i went off at 8pm because joe had something on.
didnt get to see baby because she was in the cinema watching movie with her mum.
went back to tpy to meet qi.
went to play arcade.
after that, sat outside enter and talked..
i went off at 1030pm.
and now, it is 1am and im not asleep yet..
i have school tml..
yes, im going back to school to study.
because of my parents, and for myself.
but im not sure if i can cling on..
i need someone to always talk to me,
and tell me that i have study..
if not, i'll not feel like studying again..
i dont have enough self-discipline to study in ITE.
i need people to force me to go to school.
i need people to force me to study.
i hope, i'll go back and study for real.
and i wont have the thinking to quit again.

marry me.

porQpine

2009-03-02T01:03:00.002+08:00

this is my 400th post..
lols.
baby's hungry, she's cooking noodles now..
i cooked noodles about 1 - 2 hours ago..
and had cereal a few minutes ago..
well, cant meet baby on monday and tuesday..
her mum's off days..
sigh, i might be home..
i might not be home also because,
outside tpy entertainment,
there's going to be a pasar malam!
wooohooo!
and, my eye is red now.
left eye..
i dont know why...
but suddenly, it was very very pain.
hmms, nothing else to blog about..
just want my baby to know that,
i'll miss her..
ok, nothing else..

hold me tight.

porQpine

2009-02-26T02:00:00.003+08:00

i've not been updating uh.. xP
lazy to..
now, i dont know what to blog about..
nothing much to blog either..
it will all be about baby, baby and baby..
i've been playing psp for these few days..
well, i lost my 4GB memory card when i first got my psp.
and a few days ago, i found one..
take note, i found one.
not steal one..
it was really on the floor..
i dont steal things..
yupps..
happily playing WWE on my psp..
now my fingers are going numb soon..
so im going to stop and get some sleep..
baby's asleep now..
she's been asking me whether i've been blogging..
and i always blog when she's sleeping.. xDD
yupps..
sent baby's friend off today..
flight at 9pm..
after that, her other 2 friends, baby and i went to changi village for nasi lemak.
her friend drives..
after dinner, her friend send me home. (;
i saw a rainbow today..
a huge one..
complete rainbow..
and my baby was there with me.. (;

you bring colours

into my world

porQpine

2009-02-21T00:35:00.003+08:00

went to watch movie with baby today..
we watched 'he's just not that into you.'
the show is quite alright to me..
i think baby like the show alot..
had dinner with daddyjoe and a friend.
yupps..
baby surprised me in the afternoon..
we were suppose to meet at enter at 1230pm.
i was late.. i left my house at 1225pm.
baby msged me and told me she reached enter already..
when i went down, and came out of the lift,
they was this man who almost bump onto me, so i just walked away,
without noticing that baby was just behind..
gosh, couldnt believe she would come to my house downstairs to pick me up uh. xDD
had a great day with baby.
how i wish i can just bring her home..
and stay with her..
nabei! my specs spoil can!
how am i going to watch movie with ty and mich tml?
so maybe i cant watch anymore..
until i get a new specs..

hold me close.

porQpine

2009-02-20T02:45:00.002+08:00

happy happy happy!
baby made salad for me today. (;
very nice!
i finished the vegetables, but didnt finish the tomatoes..
heh heh!
after that, met baby's friends..
around 1030, went back to tpy..
reached at around 1130pm, met dar at enter.
eh hey hey hey.
went to play pool.
my daddy, joe, came down to play..
after playing a few rounds,
joe sat on corner and played my baby's psp.. =="
baby's psp was with me, for 3-4 days. xDD
after pool, went down to the kopitiam to grab a bite..
i had a drink only..
joe ordered bread and eggs.
after that, daddyjoe sent me home, he's going help me ask starbucks
whether they need people. (;

baby,

1 month had passed.

and there's more to come.

no matter what,

i'll always be by your side,

always here for you.

i love you.

porQpine

2009-02-18T05:12:00.002+08:00

just got back from prawning,
with joe, qi and baby.
baby's sleeping on my bed.
so cute. (;
surprised me that she can come out to meet me.
she came to fahmogou's house to look for me.
i was playing mahjong with them.
she laughed at me lorh.
zzzz. bad..
baby's going back at 6am.
im going over to her house later. (:
baby's peeping..
kay siao sleep.
i better stop blogging. xPp
and, my mummy wasnt asleep when i reach home can!
god.. dont know why uh..
dont know whether she's been sitting in the living room
for the whole night until now.
or she just woke up not long ago, and she's using my bro's comp to watch shows.
hope it is she just woke up not long ago,
and she's watching shows just to kill time.
that's all!

mine. yours.

forever.

porQpine

2009-02-15T14:23:00.000+08:00

hmms, i know i've not been updating.. xDD
too lazy uh..
spending the past few days with my baby.
was fun..
her friends are funny.
well, im just going to blog about yesterday.
met baby at shawhouse at orchard.
baby wanted to pass something to tiff.
was a gift from another person.
after that, we walked around orchard from 3plus until 5plus 6pm.
we went to yoshinoya at taka, around 3plus 4.
after i finish my food, i look at baby and asked her,
do you know why you dont need to buy anything for me on valentine's?
she didnt have the answer.
i whispered to her ear,
because having you to accompany me on valentine's will be enough.
lols! sweet talking again.. she always say this to me. xD
but what i say is true ok!
we went over to meet yiwei and her gf at cine.
after that, we walk around cine.
yiwei wants to find a gift for our lovely girl, glenda. (;
she manage to find.
yupps.
then the 4 of us waited for the rest to come.
we saw mrMK at cine.
the next to reach was qi, gen and xiaohong.
not long after them, joe, my laodou reached also.
laodou got flowers for glenda as her present.
so all of us reached for dinner with glenda.
but! she was late!
suppose to meet at 645pm,
but she reached at 745pm.
hahas! wow! the place is packed can!
gen, qi and xiaohong went to wait for seats.
it is at cine's 2nd level.
a jap restaurant.
had dinner there!
there were 9 of us..
after dinner, we went to heeren because dar wanted to get something.
after heeren, went back to cine..
played arcade, and pris came.
finish with arcade, we went to kbox!
yiwei and her gf left first.
then foonyee and her bf came.
while glenda was singing, qi, gen, xiaohong and joe went to get a cake for glenda.
the cake didnt come immediately,
so glenda didnt suspect i think.
hmms, glenda went out of the room with pris.
then the cake came!
we light up the candles and waited for her to come back.
she was surprised!
yeah!!
woohoo!!
we sang a birthday song for her.
glenda thought i havent buy her present yet..
after she distribute the cake to everyone,
i took out her present.
it was a gift from me and baby.
a renoma wallet.
she was soo happy.
and i think she was surprised again. (;
my favourite!
surprise people.
i didnt know i have to put a coin inside.
so for that, sorry glenda.
yupps.
after kbox, around 1plus 2am i think.
went to the cafe outside cine to sit down and drink.
my laodou bought ice chocolate for me and baby.
weeehee!
lols. glenda bought salad and mocha.
before she can eat her salad, someone called her.
so she went off without eating her salad. xP
must be something important uh. ;DDDD
heh heh.
the rest of us went home, because we were tired.
baby came over to my house first.
and she went off at 530am..
her alarm at 530am make me jump up from my beauty sleep can. xP
yupps.
today, i think im not going out.
baby's having her lunch now.
alone around her house area.
i wanted to wake up at 9am, and go over to her house to surprise her.
but i woke up at 1pm.
wahlan oi..
nvm..
her mum not working on monday and tuesday.
very good.
i have less time to spend with her...
sigh..
i dont want to think about it.
that's all!
what a long post..

baby says

i look like a

playboy.

porQpine

2009-02-09T17:25:00.002+08:00

gosh,
this morning, woke up at 545am,
rushed down to baby's house.
accompany her to work! (;
think she should be shocked to have me msging her in the morning,
telling her im on my way there.
hmms,
i had lunch with her also.
she started work at 8am,
and her breaktime around 11am?
i waited for her..
after having lunch with her,
i went home..
because she wants me to come home and sleep.
i slept like a pig man! xDD
and no msgs from her..
no replies from her..
i guess she's really busy today..
anyway, today, both of us are going to have dinner with our own family.
im having a dinner later..
with my grandparents.
yupps.
not sure where eh..
and im getting worried..
baby suppose to be off work at 5pm?
now it is 5:30pm and she havent reply me yet.. ):
sigh...

i'll never leave you.

porQpine

2009-02-07T23:18:00.003+08:00

i dont want to leave my baby.
neither do i want her to leave me.
i really want more of her.
i really want to spend my life with her.
i really love her.
i really need her by my side.
i cant continue...
she just scare the shit out of me...
i dont want to blog....

ok, time now is 11:05am, and it is the 8th.
im back to continue blogging about yesterday. xP
baby scare me yesterday.
there were noises coming from my ceiling.
then i shouted, upstairs super noisy,
baby told me, dont, later it is ghost.
then i ran out of my room. =="
she really scare the fcuk out of me can.
i couldnt fall asleep either..
so she accompany me on the phone..
until i sleep..
but obviously, she fell asleep first,
then i was able to fall asleep.
ok, yesterday, i went down to parkway to look for my baby.
she was suppose to meet her mum for dinner after her work.
ty, mich and i sat at table 25 waiting for her.
after work, she had cravings for popeye again.
then i told her, isnt she suppose to have dinner with her mum?
and she made a phone call to her mum..
so dinner, with me!
ty, mich, baby and i went down to singapore flyer..
there was popeye's there.
so baby and i ate,
ty and mich took the singapore flyer.
after that, we meet after they were done taking the flyer.
headed to marina square's starbucks.
sat there..
my baby made me laugh out really loud..
i took her house keys without letting her know.
then i told her, see! my ahmah house key.
then she ohhh, and for a momnet she paused and said, eh! that's mine!
lols!! then i keep denying and say it is my ahmah's house keys!
then she snatched my bag and said, this is my ahmah's bag!
LOLs! so cute can...
wahlao... i really falling deeper and deeper for her..
she's all i need.

irreplaceable.

porQpine

2009-02-07T00:16:00.002+08:00

went out with my baby today.
met her in the morning to go to the temple.
after temple, we went to kim keat foodcourt for breakfast cum lunch.
waited at rc for my sec sch mates to come out.
sat there awhile then we went off to enter.
i played drums while she played some other games.
challenged daytona with her.. xP
after gaming,
we went to plaza sing.
watched curious case of benjamin buttons.
quite a draggy movie,
but overall, okok to me.
and the cinema stinks man.. zzz. tsk. no offence.
baby had craving for chicken lasagne so we wanted to go to cafe cartel..
but there was a long queue.
i asked her if she wants to eat popeye's.
and she was so happy can..
so we headed to terminal 3, changi airport to have dinner.
after dinner, i sent her home..
it was a long journey home uh..
and now im back home.
she's happily sleeping on the phone.. xP

dont leave me.

porQpine

2009-02-06T00:31:00.003+08:00

i love my baby.
im hers, always.
unless one day she say she dont want me anymore. xDD
anyway! fcuk man!
i woke up early for school today and nabei.
school starts at 1pm. =="
then it is too rush for me because i have work at 530pm.
so i didnt go to school again.
im planning to tell my dad that this year i dont feel like studying yet.
and tell him that this year i work first.
then next year i'll start my studies again.
you think he'll be ok with it?
i think he will..
because he keep telling me if i dont want to study,
let him know, dont waste my time.
sigh.. but i really dont have the heart to study yet.
i was the barista today..
im totally fcuked up..
i think i did damn bad can..
zzz.. and today's my last day.
im not working in this company anymore.
so im going to find a new job soon,
in order to earn money and pay for my baby's things. xDD
anyone have job to intro to me,
do let me know. (;
that's all!

im yours. (;

porQpine

2009-02-05T00:09:00.002+08:00

baby came to my house to bai nian today.
i went over to parkway to wait for her to finish work.
she end work at 5pm, and i reached around 455pm? LOLs.
she bought famous amos cookies for my mum..
we took a bus over to enter first because i wanted to bring her to see amymother of mine. xDD
amymother was so happy to see her can.
the smile was sooo wide and she even greeted a very lovely ' HI ' to baby.
after that, baby and i walked to my house.
while we were walking, reaching the bridge to my house,
it started to rain..
and i was drenched..
my parents, younger brother, baby and i went to lorong 8 to eat kway chap.
i think baby felt super nervous.
after having dinner,
came to my house.
yupps.
how i wish she can stay at my house..
anyway! we had a great laugh while we were on our way to lorong 8 and on our way back home.
because my mum was so funny. xP
baby likes my family.
especially my mum. (;
she's home now.
and i have to sleep soon.
because i have to go to school tml.
i promised her and my parents that i'll go to school.
byebye!

you'll always be

a part of me.

porQpine

2009-02-03T03:24:00.000+08:00

hmms, nothing much to blog about..
waiting for cheryl chan to reach home..
she's at my laodou's house playing mahjong..
sigh..
i dont know why i cant fall asleep..
i didnt msg, neither did she msg me..
i went to school today..
reached at 1030, then my classmate told me that they are having breaktime. =="
so class starts at 11pm and ended at 12pm. xDD
tml, class starts at 9am, ends at 12pm.
i like this kind of hours for studying.
this kind of timing, i would want to go to school.
well, i have to get up at 730, now, it is going to be 330 soon.
im left with 4hours..
sigh...
i keep falling asleep in class eh..
and in the bus also..
i guess im too tired..
im super bored..
i've got nothing to do...

ily.

porQpine

2009-02-01T03:07:00.003+08:00

porQpine

2009-01-30T01:20:00.001+08:00

I LOVE CHERYLCHAN.

im here for you, always.

no matter what you're going through..

be it good times or bad times,

i'll be by your side and i want you to know that.

i want you to know that you're important to me.

i want to see you happy.

i want to see your smile,

hear your laughter.

in life, there are many problems to face.

after facing one, and solving it,

there will be another one.

so no matter what,

im here to accompany you all these ups and downs in your life.

sometimes, i really just want to hold you tight,

i want to be the person who can stop all your problems,

but i cant..

i can only be your listener, your shoulder.

im on the phone with you now,

and you're in your lalaland.

i guessed you check-in already.

waiting for me to check-in.

every night, i have to make sure you are asleep,

then i'll sleep.

sometimes i have to talk to you on the phone,

hear you sleeping,

breathing,

then i'll be able to fall asleep.

you're just the one im looking for.

despite being unglam,

i still love you alot.

i dont bother if you're unglam.

i dont bother if my friends comment about you.

if i love you, means i love you,

no one can change the way i think about you.

28th Jan, was the 2nd month that i like you.

we're doing fine so far.

im sorry that i didnt talk to you the other day.

when i was working with you and pris.
im sorry i didnt look at you when you were asking me questions,

worrying for me.

im sorry that i didnt even bother about you.

im sorry that i didnt tell you why was i so upset.

im sorry that i threw my temper while working when i know that you

didnt like it.

im sorry for all the things that i've done that made you unhappy.

but i want you to know that i love you only.

you're just so unique to me that you caught my attention.

remember, cheriegoh is here for you cherylchan.

im getting tired, goodnight.

20109

porQpine

2009-01-28T02:43:00.000+08:00

just got home.
sigh, mummy's crying in the kitchen.
i dont know why.
is it because she told me to come home earlier but i didnt?
sigh..
i dont know how to cheer her up,
so im back in my room.
went to my mum's side this morning.
until 6plus,
uncle richard drove me to parkway because he stay nearby.
waited for cheryl at outlet.
hmms,
manjing bought pizza!
from pastamania.
woohoo! (;
after that, went to have frog porridge with cheryl, shirley, tiff, chanel and one more friend.
lols, after that, went home!
wheees!
i reached home at 220am.
yupps.
that's all.

you'll always be my baby

porQpine

2009-01-26T01:36:00.000+08:00

wow, i just reached home. it is 1:28am..
hmms, anyway, woke up at 1045am,
went to shower.
went over to my mother's side for lunch..
played Wii. xP
after lunch, went over to my dad's side..
hmms, had dinner there.
then went out to AMK hub to meet melissa, joy and joey.
they bought tickets for the movie, the wedding game.
it was at 940pm, and when i got there, it was 815pm..
we played arcade..
the movie was ok,
i think love matters is a better show?
after the show, it was around 1130pm.
ah sam, came down to pick us up,
and off we go to jalan kayu to have prata!
weeeheee!
yupps.
then they sent me home.
i think baby miss me alot uh.
hahas! so do i.
she said we cant see each other for 3days.
sunday, monday, tuesday.
sad right? xDD
she wrote a post for me.
was so happy to read it.
no matter what,
i'll make sure we get to see each other within 3days.
dont be surprised to see me. (;
you know i'll do anything just to meet you.
i'll do anything just for you.
I LOVE YOU. ;DDD

slow and steady.

porQpine

2009-01-25T01:59:00.000+08:00

i was there when you miss me.
i was there when you need me.
i was there when you feel down.
i was there when you were angry.
and i want to be there for you, always.
at times, i really dont know how to cheer you up.
i dont know what to do so that you wont feel angry.
i dont know what to do to stop you from feeling down.
i know, i can make you laugh.
i know i can hurt you easily also.
i always say you look like a monkey because your hands are long.
say you're wide.
say that you're very thick skinned.
say things that are a little nasty about you,
but deep down in my heart, you are still the one that i chose to go for,
the one i chose to love.
you told me that you dont love me as much as i love you,
but soon, i know you will.
if im feeling down,
no matter what,
you'll make me smile.
you'll try to cheer me up.
and you never fail to do so.
isnt it weird?
from the start, they were pushing me and pris together,
but i fell for you.
i was thinking, what made me fall for you?
why did i fall for you?
and how?
i always thought that im a person who looks at the outward apearance.
but it turns out that i dont.
i dont need you to do anything for me.
i just need you to love me.
i just need you to be there for me.
i just need you to be the one and only one for me.
i just need you, cherylchan.

20109

porQpine

cherylchan and me.

2009-01-21T01:38:00.002+08:00

hmms, today, nothing much to blog about eh.
met vincent in the morning,
had mac breakfast..
budget one.. $2 meal. xDD
after that, went to KKH to meet guipeng.
her baby was there..
after that, proceed to guipeng's house..
went to rc at about 2 - 215pm.
after that pris came down to meet us.
we went into school. xDD FTPSS.
zaihanah say she didnt see see pris and guipeng in our school before.
then guipeng say she didnt see zaihanah before also.
hahas! xDD
went over to meiyan dian for late lunch..
ty, vincent, guipeng, pris, me.
saw debra and celine there.
pris accompanied me home to change.
im super hyper today,
until when i went over to parkway,
i was exhausted..
cherylchan finished work,
we went for supper with pris..
after that took 966 with cherylchan..
when it reached my bus stop,
my eyes couldnt open!
god! am i that tired?!
so i sent cheryl all the way home..
and then i cabbed home.. zzz..
im going broke eh..
tsk!

iloveyou. (;

porQpine

GRANDMA AND I

2009-01-18T20:20:00.003+08:00

im going to start by writing about this grandma of mine. (;

PAST:

this is a picture of my grandma and i, before she went into hospital because of her diabetes.
lovely, cute, chubby.
she cooks dinner everyday..
i love eating her food.
i seldom eat vegetables, but as long as she's the one who cooked it, i'll eat it.
i miss the eggs that she cook.
i miss her bah kut teh.
i miss her fish porridge.
i miss everything that she cooks.
when i found out she went into hospital last year,
i was super scared, worried, and i cried..
when i went to the hospital to visit her,
i can see and feel her pain.
i wanted to cry, but i remember that she once told me,
that if something were to happen to her,
she dont want to see me crying..
so i kept my tears.
but i couldnt keep it for long..
i'll cry when i get home..
i was so scared that she would not be able to make it..
because she looked so weak and tired to me.
but thank Guan Yin Ma, she did. (:
when she was discharged from hospital,
i was so happy.
and now, she can walk!
but she became very small size..
not my chubby grandma anymore.
this is something that made me a little unhappy.
because she lost too much weight..
yupps.
but so what right?
as long as she's still alive! (:

PRESENT:

and this is my grandma now. (:
dont she look like a gang leader? xDD
the hei se hui lao da. xDD
hahas! isnt she still as cute?
yupps..
so happy that i can take a pic with her again.
she's my favourite grandma!

today went to buy prata for cheryl..
had to walk out to enter first,
took 232 to blk 4,
then took 59 back to enter,
alighted, took bus 8,
alighted at the bus stop behind my school
and boarded 966 to get all the way to parkway.
waited for her to finish work.
then took 966 with her.
i alighted first and took 139 to my granny's house.
cheryl went to meet mummy. (;
i guess she isnt home yet?

yupps. that's all.

it is hard for me

to quit smoking.

but if you really

want me to,

i'll try my very best.

porQpine

2009-01-18T01:18:00.003+08:00

hmms,
today, my baby cousin's 1 year old birthday.
went over to bishan's the Gardens i think..
it is a condo..
the guard there is..
i dont want to comment about it..
after the celebration,
cheryl wasnt in a good mood while working..
so i msged her saying im going home..
so that means im not going down..
lols, but i surprised her. (:
she called me while i was taking 966 down to parkway.
and i told her i was in the car on the way home.. xP
i appeared at parkway..
she wasnt facing the direction that i was walking in..
so i stood behind her and acted like a customer by saying ' excuse me. '
she turned and i think she was a little surprised that i appeared.
hope she doesnt feel moody after i appear with that surprise.. xP
she slowly did her closing can..
i was wearing quite formal..
wearing a tie with a formal shirt and black skinny jeans.
a customer came towards me and asked what time does the outlet close.
OMG. do i look like a manager or assistant manager?
after cheryl finish her closing,
we went to have a drink at the coffeeshop.
ice lemon tea.. home made. xDD
cheryl's treat eh..
after having the drink, walk walk then cab home. (;
im home~~!
going for fishball noodles breakfast tml!
yaye-ness!
and my eyes are super tired..
because i didnt have enough sleep..
woke up at the same time as cheryl and i didnt nap at all..
from 1030am til now..
wow!

to cut short about yesterday,
went to play pool with cheryl, shirley, joe, tiff, pris and dar.
after pool, we went to catch the movie 'passengers' at 130am.
i didnt know they were dead until cheryl told me lorh..
tsk!
after movie, went for supper?
lols, or early breakfast?
i didnt eat..
yupps..
and my mood wasnt good yesterday.
blue black on my knuckle as usual..
yupps.

will we be together soon?

porQpine

2009-01-16T00:00:00.002+08:00

went to school this morning..
was late for an hour.. xDD
wahs.. hahas!
after school, went over to nyp to meet sharon..
we went to amk hub for lunch together.. (;
i sent her back to school..
she had class at 2pm..
we had lunch at 12pm..
yupps..
after sending her back to school, i went down to tpy.
went rc to meet ty and friends..
went to dar's house..
helped her walked her dog while she do her stuffs.
we went to inter together to meet qiling..
after that, we proceed to parkway parade..
dar had her meal at the coffeeshop near the bus stop..
after that, dar had to start work at 530pm..
went to walk around parkway with cheryl while qiling went off to look for gen.
still looking for berms for me eh..
my new year clothes..
TSK! irritating..
around 6? went to take 966 with her..
then she thought she was meeting her friends at 730 or 830..
but it turns out to be 7pm. =="
so i went over with her, had dinner with her 2 friends, then i went home..
yupps.
damn long can!
i think i took one and a half hour to reach home..
going to have breakfast with vincent tml..
645am at blk 4, prata!!!
woohooo!!!
rocks!
that's all.. (;

you. me. us.

porQpine

2009-01-14T23:14:00.003+08:00

im suffering from PAIN!
physical PAIN.
sad...
i got my haircut today..
looks better now..
looks decent.. xDD
had lunch with sharon at her poly..
damn! i was late for school today..
school starts at 8 and i woke up at 9 can..
tsk!
then vincent was late for school also..
so i met him, and we went to school together.
wanted to mark attendance then leave de.
but i cant find my class..
so i MUST attend class tml.. hahas!
if not, later the teacher call my dad again uh..
then my dad will tell me not to study anymore.. xDD
went out with cheryl today..
we went to watch Yes Man..
lols, i know it is out for very long already..
but i was ok.
not bad.
quite funny. xDD
after that, we went down to bpp to have dinner with her 2 friends.
super full! xP
then home!!
im home early today..
count early lorh..
1040pm can..
my dad didnt call to nag. ;DDD
but amy mother called to tell me to go home earlier. xDD
might be meeting qiling at j8 tml..
yupps..
that's all.

closer.

porQpine

2009-01-12T20:06:00.002+08:00

hmms,
i seriously dont know what to blog about..
congrats my brother for getting 16points for L1R4.
sigh,
i dont want to blog out how i feel..
im not in the mood now..
heartache?
maybe, at that moment.
but feeling a little better now..
well, teacher called me dad this morning, saying that he hasnt been seeing me for a week.
my dad called and asked me..
i told my dad, i didnt go on thursday and friday only..
and i was late for school today..
school starts at 9.
i woke up at 9..
reached school at 10plus.
teacher let us off at 11, 11plus.
wow.. i have no idea what am i doing there..
the teacher talk talk talk..
yupps..
had lunch with vincent..
met dar opp ftpss.
sat for awhile, then i went home..

your words pierce

through my heart.

porQpine

2009-01-11T11:13:00.002+08:00

poor cheryl is not feeling well..
zzz...
going to meet ty and pris later..
we're going bishan..
i guess we should be having dinner together..
i need to get cash from my dad..
zzz.. my new shirt cost $35..
wahahahs! he's going to pay for it!
wheee heee!
not sure what are we going to do eh..
so im bringing about $15 out..
MY DAD IS NOT HOME YET!
i need my $35!!
i dont want to spend my own cash now!!
AHHHHHH!!
im afraid of going broke..
so i have to control my spending..
sigh...
damn sleepy eh..
but should be going out soon..
OH! i still have time to sleep!
very good!
wahhahas!!

make your decision.

porQpine

2009-01-08T00:50:00.000+08:00

well, i hope by blogging,
it will make me feel better..
things just change so fast..
too fast that i cant adapt to it..
would it be better if we're not friends?
or would it be better if we're together?
would it be better if wer'e friends?..
sometimes, i have no idea why am i doing all these,
when i know in the end, i'll get hurt the most..
when i know, it is not possible..
but i keep thinking it is possible?
am i just thinking too much?
am i giving myself false hope?
like i heard from my friend.. ' you know it is a dead end in front, but you still want to go ahead. '
yes, all these is what i asked for..
i cant deny that i didnt totally listen to dar..
when it comes to relationship,
i always think that it is possible when my friends tell me it is not...
i would always want to prove them wrong..
but it'll end up them proving me wrong..
if you were to ask me,
have i ever regret liking huiwen.
my answer will be no.
but i will tell you that i hate her for what she have done..
i dislike her for the things she did to me..
we cant even be friends anymore..
because, it is just too difficult for me to do that..
why is it so easy to love someone,
but so difficult to forget them?
to let go of them?
to let them go if they will be happier with someone else..
why is it so difficult for me to do that?..
yes, now i agree with claris that love, indeed it is selfish..
it is super selfish..
i've been through this..
i know the feeling is super sucky..
it is something that breaks the heart..
i would take a job because i wanted to make time fly faster..
make myself forget huiwen as fast as possible..
and i did..
not long after, i fell for another person who is in the same job as me..
wow, so what now?
i cant quit right..
i told my manager i will work even if im working..
i wont go against my words.
how am i going to get over this?
am i going to wait like what i did last time?
and wait til something bad happen to me,
then i'll stop waiting?
wait til i cry like a little kid,
wait til i feel scared to be alone because i will think too much.
wait til i know, what dar said is true..
will all these happen once more?
can you not make all these happen once more?
why dont you move on?
why do you bear so much hopes on someone?
why?
maybe you're just as stubborn as me?
or like you said, you and her have been through alot..
it is something that im lack of..
or is it because of our age gap?
or is it a part of my character or attitude that makes you wont like me?
im just thinking too much right?
why cant i just listen to my friends?
why cant i just do what they tell me to?
why do i always do things my way in relationship?
why dont i move on?
why wont i learn? after knowing that i'll only hurt myself?
im not easy to counsel..
no matter how much you tell me..
until something happens to me..
something nasty..
something hurtful..
something bad..
then, i'll feel the heartache,
then i'll stop loving her?
im yet another bastard right?
im getting into a picture of 2 person who have been through alot together..
2 people who made a promise to each other.
sometimes, i just feel like giving up..
but when i hug you, i dont want to let go..
because i know once i let go,
i'll lose you..
i want to hold you tight,
i dont want to let you go..
but you said to me once..
if i really love you, let you go..
i'll always think of this sentence..
it is really very difficult for me to do it..
im very lost now..
qiling asked me,
i only know her for 1-2months,
cannot be i'll like her so fast..
she asked me, do i like her or love her.
i told qiling, if i carry on like this,
i'll love her alot..
no matter what you do, i wont get angry..
even if i am, if you look me in the eye, i'll smile..
your actions, the way you speak, everything about you makes me smile..
if you're feeling happy, i'll feel happy..
your mood will be my mood.
but i always tell myself..
im not the person who can make you smile..
im not the person who can brighten up your day..
will i ever be the one who can do it?
im not sure..
all i know is,
i'll do whatever it takes to see you smile.
i'll do whatever it takes to get you what you want.
i'll do whatever it takes...

Xaevier.

porQpine

2009-01-05T22:18:00.004+08:00

im damn tired..
zzz... slept for 2hours only..
first day of school was..
super boring..
keep talking and talking can..
ARGH!
lucky there's vincent to accompany me for my breaktime..
ahboh i nothing to do lorh..
zzz..
damn sian..
seriously..
after that, went home..
brought my pants to do some xiu gai..
too hip hop liao.. xDD
went down to Central at Clarke Quay with vincent and jian fa..
had yoshinoya for dinner..
went over to KK Hospital to visit guipeng's baby..
poor evelyn..
she super cute can!!
just that she cries easily..
like princess eh..
but i manage to make her laugh. (:
woohoo..
after that, i went home at 9pm..
and i reached home at about 930pm..
so darn tired...
gonna stop here..
i havent shower..
going to shower now..
having school tml again.. =="
nabei.. going to hear them talk talk talk again..
i think i'll seriously fall asleep can...
darn! my stomach suddenly damn pain.. zzz...
damn it..

Vincent and Me.

do you know how it feels?

porQpine

2009-01-05T01:50:00.003+08:00

first day of ITE school life will start today, 5th Jan.
i'll be meeting claris at 715am at her house, to pass her, her pe attire..
so i guess i might not be sleeping..
im afraid i cant wake up..
after that, walk her to school, then go off..
meet vincent for breakfast,
then head off to school together..
lols. not bad, i can youhoo to him in school.
hahas! and debra wants to meet me at RC tml..
i finish school at 12pm.
they finish at 2pm i think.
so tired..
im not working for this whole week.
i have no idea why..
but, ok.. off for a week is ok..
lols, maybe all the full-timer hope they'll have a week off..
hahas. im bored eh..
nothing to do..
gonna stop here..

(; i want you..

porQpine

2009-01-02T00:20:00.003+08:00

hmms,
going to buy uniform..
new year! woohoo!!
and im thinking whether i should quit smoking..
because it is a new year.
new start.
new life.
new me.
and probably new gf uh? xDD
hahas, i think wont have luh..
i lazy to chase already..
im panting..
too tired..
i run run run in the end also cannot catch the person luh..
very wide also can run faster than me lorh..
wahlao whey..
hahas! xDD
joanne ask me to work tml..
wheeees~~~
2 - 6pm.
and pussytay wants my pe attire..
because ftpss dont sell pe shirt liao..
no collar one..
so mine more unique..
got collar.
just give her only!
finally i have money man!!
woohoo!!
finally!!
nothing else to blog about liao leh..
and im hungry..
and im tired..
and my eyes are shutting.
and im stopping here.

what do you want?

porQpine

2009-01-01T12:40:00.002+08:00

it is 2009 people!
how fast!
and im going to start ITE school soon?
happy new year to all..
today's my off day..
tml meeting vincent at 730am to go school buy uniform.
i'll be able to meet dar tml! (:
dar is starting school tml..
sigh, not in the same school as dar le..
i'll miss ahdar..
i'll miss claris..
i'll miss my class people..
sigh..
nvm! new year, new life!
lols, dont look back into 2008.
there are still many years ahead..
many things in life for me to encounter,
for me to overcome.
going to meet ty to play basketball..
we play basketball very relax de..
throwing only..
no running..
lazy to run uh.. xDD
after playing bball, going down to parkway..
it seems that everyone in my outlet knows who i like uh..
it is suppose to be low profile..
i didnt want to tell anybody, except dar and pris..
wow, seems like everybody's sixth sense is very good..
dar's birthday is coming!!
i shall get something for her..
OH YARH!
i must go enter to return amy her $10..
then return pris her $20 and $50 that i lost to qiling for gambling..
almost forget..
phew! lucky i remember..
ahboh later i kenna slap by amy..
im stopping here..

im in to you.

porQpine

2008-12-31T00:28:00.002+08:00

hmms, i have nothing to blog about..
not in the mood to blog..
im going to AMK ITE on 2nd jan..
to buy my uniform and pay school fees..
damn tired these few days..
because, outlet damn busy...
i dont know why..
monday machiam sunday..
today machiam saturday lorh..
sooo many people..
soooo tiring.. ):
tml working 10-6pm,
then countdown with colleauges..
luckily im off on thursday..
can sleep!! ;DDDD
that's all.

you brighten up my life.

porQpine

2008-12-28T01:45:00.002+08:00

lols, i feel damn lazy to blog today..
nothing to do eh...
on the phone with pris now..
and im getting hungry...
and i dont want blog..

will you take my hand?

porQpine

2008-12-27T01:09:00.002+08:00

eh hey~~
im back..
from work..
xP. wasnt SOOOO busy today..
can cope.. tml night will be with Joe.
my MEH-NEH-GER.
hope i'll do everything nicely for Joe.
so that i wont get scoldings.
hmms, im not tired at all..
seriously.. i have no idea why..
i only sleep for 3hours, yet so hyper..
something wrong with me uh..
hmms, broke broke broke~~
AAHHHHHHH!!
no money! bo liu~~
i think i can dont eat for tml uh..
go on a diet again..
then there goes my weight..
i'll get smaller and smaller size..
kiu zhiu.. shrink!
tsk tsk tsk.. sounds great uh..
working night night night tml..
closing closing closing..
nothing much to blog..
and i have a new nickname from adelynn oong!
Kerhtheyie is my christian name.
Goh is my surname.
Ah Gua is my chinese name.
Kerhtheyie Goh Ah Gua. ;DDDDD
what a great name! xDD hahas.
that's all.
i've got nothing else to blog about..
and i bought a lime green handphone strap..
very very long long one.
can hang on the neck one.
you know that one.
that one luh.
that one.. xDDDD
hahas, okok, im getting lame..
i better stop.
and im getting in to ITE AMK.
Electrical Technology.
yaye-ness! yipeee!!!
here i come vincent! xDD

getting use to it.

porQpine

2008-12-26T08:28:00.002+08:00

well, guessed my blog didnt manage to entertain someone yesterday. xDD
nvm, i just got back from qiling's house..
hmms, celebrated christmas with them..
them refers to vincent, joanne, adelynn, pris, qiling, gen, dar, serena, celine.
hmms, qiling, adelynn, dar and celine played mahjong.
pris, vincent, serena, joanne and i played blackjack.
pris was the winner man.. zzz..
win so much money..
after that qiling lost money while playing mahjong,
so that's why i think she came over to play with us..
wah, her bets were super big can..
then i was playing on behalf of pris..
we lost $50 to her.. zzz..
sians.. nvm..
adelynn, i guessed she's the winner for mahjong..
the person who won the most money for mahjong..
we played from.. im not sure what time..
but until 6plus i think.
then we went for breakfast at mac..
adelynn treat me. (: thanks eh.
sorry to pris, for losing your $50.
suddenly, just dont have the mood eh..
sigh.. ok nvm.
yesterday was celine's birthday.. so yupps. happy birthday..
today is debra's birthday..
happy birthday debra loi.
working later...
530 - 1130pm..
tired uh..
yesterday finished work then go over... until now havent sleep..
i know i should not be the one complaining that im tired..
because dar and pris has to go to work super early..
pris starts work at 9am.
dar start work at 10am..
so, yarh, at least i get to sleep.
while we were at mac,
i think i should say that i quarrelled with dar..
sorry dar..
just that, i lost pris money...
so wasnt in a good mood..
you'll always always be my most important friend.
i dont want to quarrel with you..
neither would i want to see you get angry..
so, yarh... maybe i should say sorry..
hope you're reading this..
not really in the mood now..
plus im tired..
just feel like punching things..
sigh..
im going to spend some time with my guitar..
then im going to sleep..
bye..

im just another bastard.

porQpine

2008-12-24T14:28:00.004+08:00

hmms, i woke up damn late today..
130pm.. xP
then i use my comp..
was bored so i was looking at people's blog..
after that i went to ahdar's blog..
because i heard from her that she updated it yesterday..
as i was reading, the ending of her post was a song dedicated to me..
i dontknow how to explain how i feel..
but tears just filled my eyes..
guess im too touched?
i didnt expect her to actually care for me sooooo much..
but she does..
GLENDA KOH, CHERIE GOH loves you man! (':
yupps..
i have not have any meals yet..
and im not sure whether i wanna eat..
because there's nothing to eat.. =="
ok, nvm, i have to get ready at around 330pm..
slowly do my stuff, then go down meet dar..
see if im going to post tonight bah.
and today's christmas eve..
woohooo.. wow.

glenda koh,

you have been the friend,

who's always there for me.

thank you.

i love you. (':

porQpine

2008-12-24T02:35:00.001+08:00

OH MY GOD,
my throat is damn pain again..
ARGH!
today went out to watch my elder brother's caroling at square 2 again.
today's the last day..
glenda and joanne came down also..
after that, we went over to parkway..
went over to outlet..
pris, qiling and g anne working..
went to smoke with ah hao. xP
that stupid ah hao.. zzz..
everytime disturb me lorh..
lols, went back to outlet..
bought ice cream.. peach flavour..
not very nice.. xDD
went to eat with pris, joanne, dar and adelynn after pris finish work..
after eating, went back home~~!!
wooohooo!!
im back home.
working on christmas night loh~.
dar cannot work, im taking over.. xP
sounds like repeating it a million times. hahas.
hope that i can cope bahs.. if it gets too busy..
hope i wont get scolded..
i'll do my very best not to get jammed. xDD
it is 24th december! my brother pussytay is coming back today!
woohoo!! finally..
im not working leh..
guess i'll be home the whole day bahs...
if not, i'll go down and meet glenda at 6pm, and have dinner with her..
then come back home.. ><"
i know im very free.
yupps that's all..
im getting hungry. xDD
and my elder brother is not home yet..
so late liao lorh..
tsk tsk tsk..
and im still so hyper..
i cant fall asleep..
i have no idea why..
xP ok, im going to stop.. ;DDDD

pris and me.

self-control is what we need.

porQpine

2008-12-23T00:22:00.004+08:00

(updated at 2:35am)
hmms, i just choose my courses for ITE..
first choice was electrical technology..
because light and sound technology is under electrical technology..
my favourite! light and sound.. woohoo..
well, there are 2 schools that have electrical technology..
so i applied for both schools..
so first 2 will be under electrical technology..
3rd choice.. you wont believe what i choose..
food and beverage.. ><"
4th choice is culinary skills..
5th is pastry and baking..
after that, i forgot the rest liao..
i remember my last choice..
that is fitness training.. xDD
wahhahas.. that is last because my stamina sucks man..
impossible that i can be those super super sporty time.. xP
my throat is DAMN pain now..
i have no idea why..
super super pain can..
i just drank a cup of milk..
with just a mouth, i finished one cup of the milk..
and my throat still hurts badly.. zzz..
ARGH!!
ok, im going to play djmax til my eyes are tired, then i fall asleep..
and im working on christmas..
because ahdar cant work on that day.
i take over her..
dont know how im going to spend my christmas..
all i want for christmas, is you~~~
lols. you know the song.. xDD
but seriously, all i want for christmas is you. (:
and im going broke!!
im left with a pathetic 5 bucks til pay day man..
damn it.. zzz..
my dad will be so damn angry if he knows about it..
i spent $460 withn a month..
that is too much!
im just a 16 year old kid eh.. zzz..
die die die..
must make sure i spend my money wisely for the following month..
anyway, i think school starts for me on Jan the 2nd eh..
darn.. but im still going to work if possible..
because i spend loads of money..
hope i get into my course. (:
okok! im stopping my nonsense here.
bye~~~

i've fallen and i cant get up.

porQpine

well well well..
today, i thought i wouldnt be going out..
msged pris at 11plus..
meet her at enter, around 245.. i was late.. xDD
because i was happily napping from 130 til 2...
too tired uh.. hahas, play djmax until my eyes tired.. xDD
meet already, we went to my mother's place for lunch..
so darn full can..
after eating.. went up to arcade..
i wanted to play drum..
but then there was a girl playing..
and just nice, hansahan called..
so i meet her tpy inter.. she wanted to buy something from there...
after she bought her thing, she went to vivo and i went back to enter with pris..
we went to get tickets for twilight.. (:
i've got student price! (:
hahas!! woohoo.. feels great to be a student man..
i have benefits! woohoo.
then, went to play drum!
finally!
i played 3times can!
because i failed my right on time 2 times..
so i keep playing..
so angry!! agitated!! irritated!!
TSK!! stupid lorh..
after drum-ing, went up for movie.. it is 430pm.
watched til 630pm..
rushed down to novena square 2 to watch my bro's so called perfomance..
christmas caroling bahs.. xDD
saw my little cousin deon there!!
cute! (:
after watching, went down to far east with pris again to have dinner..
ate fried rice..
it was great man! xP
after that, walked from far east, to tangs, then to ngee ann city, then to shawhouse..
went to see if tiffany was there..
because heard from cheryl it was her bird-day..
and luckily she was there..
if not pris and i walk all the way there for nothing liao..
so wished her happy bird-day! xDD
yupps..
lazy to blog liao..

can i not do this?

porQpine

2008-12-21T12:03:00.001+08:00

hey everybody..
these few days.. not in the right mood..
too much things to think about..
and nothing much for me to blog..
so, i didnt blog..
now im just writing rubbish because i have nothing do..
mood is super down now..
sigh..
dad just called me and scolded me..
i buay tahan, so i shout back..
hmms.. sigh..
i really dont know what to blog about eh..
im not working until next friday can.. =="
dont know how am i going to spend christmas..
now im in my room.
my door is closed..
i wanna be left alone..
but the same person keep coming up to my mind..
can i just dont think of you for a minute.. zzzz..
why cant i do that..
i am CHERIE GOH leh..
zzz..
today adelynn talked to me..
and yes, it is true that i look down on myself..
i always think i cant do this..
i cant do that..
everyone around me is better than me..
i dont think highly of myself..
that's why i always think im useless..
why am i like this?
is it the way my family brought me up?
is it because, everytime when my marks are like fcuk, my parents will compare me to someone else?..
or is it because im just too concerned of what people say about me?..
sigh..
and im thinking, how am i so confirm that i really love you?..
true too..
im thinking of ways to keep myself occupied again..
i dont want to undergo the same pain that i did before..
is it worth it?.. i dont know the answer yet..
but as far as i know.. now, i dont want the same thing to occur on me again..
the pain was really... no words to describe it..
i will just go to tpy entertainment..
sit outside by myself...
play arcade by myself..
and all of a sudden, my heart will just ache and i'll just cry..
i dont want all these again..
but i still dont know a solution to stop myself from falling deeper for you..
sigh..
all i know now, clearly, you're the person that catches my attention..
you're the person who gives me a different feeling..
you're someone different..
you're someone special..
you're someone to me..
i dont want to continue anymore..

use me as you will.

pull my strings just for a thrill.

and i know i'll be okay.

though my skies are turning grey.

porQpine

2008-12-20T13:23:00.002+08:00

All I am, All I'll be
Everything in this world
All that I'll ever need
Is in your eyes
Shining at me
When you smile I can feel
All my passion unfolding
Your hand brushes mine
And a thousand sensations
Seduce me cause I

I do Cherish you
For the rest of my life
You don't have to think twice
I will love you still
From the depths of my soul
It's beyond my control
I've waited so long to say this to you
If you're asking do I love you this much
I do

In my world, before you
I lived outside my emotions
Didn't know where I was going
'Till that day I found you
How you opened my life
To a new paradise
In a world torn by change
Still with all of my heart
'Till my dying day

porQpine

2008-12-20T01:43:00.002+08:00

hmms, feeling no where better from yesterday..
just too much problems to handle..
feel like im falling sick soon..
again.. =="
went to work today..
mother didnt come down, as she was busy..
finished work at around 530pm?
ate KFC. saw the girl that i know..
1130pm, went to mac with ahdar, cheryl and pris..
they had their meal, and i didnt.
because im having a slight sore throat..
so im not allowed to eat..
after eating..
pris played silent hill..
i played dj max portable 2 with cheryl..
went to take at around 12plus..
share cab with dar and cheryl..
yupps..
im going broke soon uh..
too generous already.. zzz..
and, sharon ong msged me..
asking me if im alright..
because of my results..
didnt expect her to know about it eh..
she told me to go appeal to go up sec 5n...
she told me to go talk to mdm aini about it..
im not sure.. 11points.. sigh.. just go ite luh..
dont want to appeal..
because i know, my studies isnt good..
im not sure..
still dont know what im going to do..
off day on saturday..
and work on sunday..
yupps..
that's all.

falling deeper..

porQpine

2008-12-19T09:35:00.003+08:00

collected n level result yesterday...
damn sad, because i got 11points for ELB2..
so i cannot go to sec 5n..
sigh..
for ELMAB3, i've got 20points.. so cannot go into ITE higher nitec course..
well, where can i go then right?
ITE nitec course.. if not i have to retain..
sigh...
on the spot, i told mdm aini and mdm tan, that i dont want to retain..
so im going ITE...
suddenly, feel like im seriously damn useless..
studies so fcuked up..
work also so fcuked up..
what do i know?
dont know how to study.. dont know how to work..
sigh... sad..
i guess i have many problems in my life..
and i cant handle them...

working later....
my throat is damn pain luh..
i feel like im smoking more and more.. =="
and that will be the cause of my throat being pain..
ohh, not sure if mother, amy, is coming down to dome to eat..
she told us maybe.. so not sure uh..
hope she comes down..
sigh. nothing else to blog about.

porQpine

2008-12-16T22:45:00.003+08:00

lols,
went to work today..
work with joe..
took my psp today!
woohoo!!
sians lorh.
went to eat pastamania with ahdar and pris..
wheee hee hee!! ;DDDDD
i love ahdar!
idamn du lan can..
i reach home only, i cant find my memory card!
nabei lorh!!
knn.. dont know why lost lorh..
fcuk..
find everywhere, cannot find..
zzz, 4gb lorh!!
hmms, tml working morning..
going over to ty house in the morning first...
she teach me how to transfer game in..
and she's going to lend me her memory card for the time being..
waiting for jessica to come back from malaysia..
then i'll ask her what to do..
lols.. she's going to go crazy if she find out that my memory card lost..
ok, at least i blogged longer than someone..
going to stop here now..
nothing much to blog..
going to eat now.. hungry. xDDD

we're empty.

porQpine

2008-12-16T02:13:00.002+08:00

well well well,
guess im just over reacting uh?
getting angry over small things..
how not to?..
jealousy is a very dangerous thing..
love, is a very confusing thing..
i'll never understand it..
i'll never know what is it about..
i'll never know how to explain it..
i'll never know anything..
this few days, my mood changes just so easily..
from a happy one, to a agitated one or maybe a sad one..
and all of a sudden, i dont feel like talking to anyone..
seriously, i dont know what is going on..
i dont know what the hell i want..
i dont know what the hell am i suppose to do.
sigh, i guess, i have to go through this all over again.
but this time, without the help of anyone.
sometimes, i will feel, where are my friends?
are they still there for me?
or have i changed?
have i changed to someone that you guys wont like?
have i changed to someone totally different?
feels like im left with nothing..
feels like im all alone..
what a sucky feeling..
well, im getting use to it soon..
being alone, playing arcade alone..
sitting outside entertainment alone..
life isnt getting any better for me..
when im feeling down,
i can only blog it out..
or maybe tell ty about it to make me feel better...
sigh..
i dont want to blog so much..
if not, my mood will be getting worse..
sigh, i hope all this will come to an end soon..
if it doesnt, i guess i shall get over it..

will you ever take my hand?

porQpine

2008-12-16T00:47:00.002+08:00

lols, im back..
i went out to meet ty today..
lols, she brought cookie out..
she say cookie miss me.. xDDD
indeed, cookie miss me..
i love cookie man!! (:
after that, went to buy shark fin's soup for qiling and dar..
went over to parkway..
sat at outlet until 11, went to eat..
after eating, obviously, go home..
nothing to blog today..

porQpine

2008-12-14T23:28:00.002+08:00

just got back from tpy..
hmms, didnt went out until night time..
lols, dar called me..
told me that she's coming down tpy with pris and qi..
so i got up from my nap.. xDD
i was actually nap-ing from 3plus until about 645pm.. xDD
so i got up, and take a shower..
get ready to go out..
msged dar to ask where were they,
and she told me, they accompany qiling to go escort gen to tpy together. xDD
hahas, so i wait a little while more, then i went down to wait for 139 instead of walking over..
waste time uh.. scared i reach too early..
and indeed, when i was reaching, dar called me and say she reached already..
just nice for dinner! (:
greeted my mother, amy, at entertainment. (: love her so much.
ate there, then went up to play arcade..
played drum!! woohoo!! right on time!
pass~~!! yeah heh! not bad uh.. but i got grade ' C ' for that..
lols, what a grade.. yet so happy.. hahas.
after drumming with them,
went to the pasar malam at crc. wheee hee!
bought a superman belt!! woah, nabei! nice lorh!
my favourite can..
and i like the logo the most! superman's powers are superb, but the person is okok larh..
as in the looks.. hahas, not so handsome leh.. xDD
nvm, the logo shuai can already. ><"
pris bought something for cheryl.
i bought shark fin for dar. (: she's a really important person to me..
so far, the friend who comes up to my mind first will be dar..
when i feel happy or sad, first friend that i'll think will be dar! (:
even when i go switzerland, i always tell me mum,
i have to tell dar this, i have to tell dar that.
dar will love this place man!
lols, everything also dar. xDD
went back to enter, sat outside, qiling, gen and dar ate their shark fin..
i sat there and did nothing. xP
pris was on the phone with cheryl.
then after they finish eating, they started talking for awhile..
after that, qiling played pris psp.
played silent hill. xDD i dont even dare to play lorh..
how gay can i get? xP
watch qiling play..
and then home!
dar, qiling and gen went to enter bus stop..
pris accompany me to interchange..
i accompany her to wait for her bus..
actually my bus came first..
then she told me, accompany her to wait for her bus.. so i said ok..
even though the driver was my favourite driver lorh!
then when all the passengers went up 139,
her bus came.. =="
so i have to run to my bus.. xP
so diu lian can! zzz..
went up the bus and told driver thank you..
she laughed and smile to me.. xP
must be she heard me saying that she's my favourite driver to pris..
saw jamie in the bus.
sat next to her and talked to her..
went down the same stop, as she stay around my area.. xDD
and im back home!
what a day..
suppose to go to my father's side to eat dinner..
and see my favourite grandma..
but, went to eat with dar and friends instead.. ><"
and next week, working on sunday.. zzz..
so cant get to see ahmah until the following week bahs..
thursday getting results..
NERVOUS!! will i go up to sec 5n?
or will i proceed to ite?
hahas, nervous right?
even guan yin ma will feel nervous for me bah.
but she'll help me! (: hahas.
im getting lame..
ok, im not working tml.. zzz
like wow right..
working on tuesday..
so where am i going to go tml?
im not sure myself.. i should start saving money..
not spending it like water.. zzzz..
left with $150 until payday.. xP
but! even if there's pay, i'll have to use it to pay my psp!
im getting a green psp! (:
jessica is getting it for me..
then i pay her..

yupps.. that's all! (:

porQpine

2008-12-14T03:07:00.002+08:00

it's been a long time ever since i cried,
sad,
down,
lost..
when will i ever change?
when will i ever learn?
sigh..
now i know why my dad cant tolerate my attitude and character sometimes..
stubborn, is a character of mine which i find it hard to change..
indeed, love is blind..
it is something which makes a person lose control of themselves..
not knowing that you've actually done so much for that person..
until you sit down and think back..
i still dont believe that when you love someone, it doesnt matter if you're together..
it doesnt make sense to me at all..
well, waiting for someone is ok to me..
but, getting nothing at the end, will be a great pain for me..
which i took long to overcome..
crying is something i do to overcome..
playing arcade is something i do also..
sitting around, doing nothing..
sigh..
i seriously dont know what is going on..
i seriously dont know what to do.. as usual..
not messaging is something i really cant do for now..
i dont know what kind of method i can use..
to overcome the previous one was to hate her.
i dont want the same method this time..
because this person is different from the previous one..
much more understanding.. much more matured thinking..
ahdar will be so pissed off to know that im actually in a same situation again..
doing the same thing again..
she tried so hard to get me out of the previous situation and yet,
im doing the same thing again..
but i know, she will help me out.. just that she'll get agitated..
but seriously, i think no one can help except myself..
maybe i should go down to entertainment and talk to my mother, amy.
maybe she'll be able to make things easier for me to see, understand and eventually, know what to do..
going through all these sucks to the core..
i hate being down, being sad, being angry..
because, it is really difficult for me to get happy for the day...
sigh... when will i ever learn..?
when?...
and when will i give up?
when will i know when to stop when i know that this would happen?
why does this problem always come back to me?
zzz, this sucks man.
fcuk this shit man..
fcuk my life..
everything' s just so fcuked up in my life..
can someone just change it for me?
or will there be someone who can talk the fcuking sense out of me.
or just fcuking hell slap the sense out of me..
ok, it's getting vulgar here..
i better stop..

porQpine